Experienced unhappiness that has somewhat been absent for a while..or maybe I chose not to think too much into it...but...today...emotions surged again..and much as I try to reconcile with myself..i still feel rather disheartened..why is it so hard to do the right thing sometimes...why must we always be in the grey area...somewhat torn and affected over what has happened...I am just living a day at a time..it helps to make me feel better...no doubt...but...the fundamental problems are still there..thanks God for friends, especially to the SJ, Fer and XY...it helps..but my heart still feels heavy...

Haiz..can the bloody market just recover asap??!?!?