i lost my china trip, my japan trip and a fren..

its been a bad week for me..and finally..its not over work...wonder i should actually be happy or sad...well..dun really wish to tok abt what has happened....but of course..i know that i am also in the wrong....just made me wonder..if is it? over this thing? i wonder..if i were ever going to look back at this many years later and realise that it was just so silly..but..it takes 2 to clap...and i am really tired of trying..maybe i m just too flawed a person to deserve someone else's frenship....thanks for people who can accept me for who i am, and forgive me when i make mistakes..and sorry for those that cant..i wonder if i should do anything..but at 28..maybe my pride is too strong as well..wonder when was the last time i cried over something...is it i have been too perfect or people have just been too accomodating to me..or nothing major has ever happened to me to make myself circum to such a situation? anyway..whether or not..talking or not talking..doesnt really matter anymore..because..some way or another..we have moved out of each other's life...no MAC (material adverse change) to each other..

just hope that i be focused on my work again..